This Is 40

40…phew. This is not quite what I imagined turning 40 would look like.  These days, my life is filled with housework, volunteer planning meetings, cooking, and sometimes taking what my almost-5 year old calls “snuggle snoozes” with my two littles (after lots of sleepless nights, up worrying about whether I’m doing this whole motherhood thing…

Reflections

Something woke me up at 4:30 this morning and I haven’t been able to go back to sleep (anyone who knows me, knows that I am *not* a morning person by any stretch of the word 🤣).  I’ve had a running dialogue in my head all morning, asking myself what I want out of life. Reflecting…

Hope Is For Suckers.

Hope. It is a four-letter word. It is quite possibly the most dangerous feeling on the planet. Because when you’ve put so much hope and faith and belief in a single outcome and wind up with anything but what you were expecting, the fallout is beyond crushing, so much more so than if your expectations…

“Why Don’t You ‘Just’ Go Adopt?”

For years, we’ve gotten the flippant and sometimes exasperated “why don’t you just go adopt?!” question from those who learn of our fertility struggles. As if it’s just that simple. There are a million reasons why we don’t just go adopt… …it’s expensive (private adoption – with all of the legal fees, adoption agency fees,…